Content warning: suicide, self harm, swearing. Someone had inadvertently mentioned D to the police. They felt absolutely awful about it and I reassured them that it was going to be alright. But fuck! 21.40 that night I’m in bed watching TV and there is a hammering at my door with a police officer shouting my … Continue reading The Road to Dignitas. The final chapter. 
The Road to Dignitas. Chapter 3. 
Content warning: suicide, self harm, swearing. 16/8/25 – over the past few days I’ve started a to-do list in an app, sent my care needs to D, and contacted the dentist for a copy of my dental chart. D has sent me a bit more information about the fact that I will be staying in … Continue reading The Road to Dignitas. Chapter 3. 
The Road to Dignitas. Chapter 2. 
Content warning: suicide, self harm, swearing. Meditation. Feeling for the year: In control. Determination, patience, self knowledge, inner strength, clarity. Spirit guide meditation 18/4/25. You are brave, you are strong, you are loved, you are love. You have already made up your mind. You have done enough. You have lived in this world and seen … Continue reading The Road to Dignitas. Chapter 2. 
The Road to Dignitas. Chapter 1. 
Content warning: suicide, self harm, swearing. Then everything went on hold. I needed to get the medical letters through a narrative of making an application for a travel grant. I contacted my specialist a few times but kept getting automatic replies and it wasn’t until late January that I eventually realised I was going to … Continue reading The Road to Dignitas. Chapter 1. 
The Road to Dignitas. Introduction. 
Content warning: suicide, self harm, swearing. Prologue written 22nd November 2025. I am going to die in three days time. I started writing this in April of this year. The first part is everything that had happened up to when I started writing. From then on it is updates, thoughts and experiences as they happened. … Continue reading The Road to Dignitas. Introduction. 
Kenya. Part 3: Tsavo Park East 
Kenya. Part 1: Getting There. Kenya. Part 2: Diani beach. Esther, who had collected me from the airport to bring me to the resort, came to the hotel in the morning to help me sort my bags and belongings for my safari trip. Once ready, we went to reception and met with Raphael, who was … Continue reading Kenya. Part 3: Tsavo Park East 
Kenya. Part 2: Diani beach.
Kenya. Part 1: Getting There. I really enjoyed Amani Tiwi Beach Resort. It was incredibly friendly with a charismatic manager. When I was ready to leave my room, I would call reception and someone would come and push me in the wheelchair down to the restaurant where the staff would take me around the buffet … Continue reading Kenya. Part 2: Diani beach.
Kenya. Part 1: Getting There. 
I’ve revisited this trip neither literally nor down memory lane for some time. There are layers to my memories and feelings now, as there are whenever I look back but it was an amazing trip and I think it’s time. Newly single in 2015 after my trip to Japan, I was lucky enough to be … Continue reading Kenya. Part 1: Getting There. 
A Life in Lengths
I have a clear memory of my first time in the deep end of a pool. It was during a primary school swimming lesson in a pool in Luton. I must have been around seven years old. A brand new sensation of weightlessness and excitement. I felt brave and grown up and that’s where my … Continue reading A Life in Lengths
World Childless Week in Woman and Home.
Mid April 2023, I was scrolling through social media, and spotted a post from my local Facebook community group. A journalist was looking for women in their 50s for an article she was writing, about how they had found ways of making friends. I immediately thought of the friendships and connections I have made in … Continue reading World Childless Week in Woman and Home.
Chaos in Slow Motion - Nina’s Life - More Than Meets the Eye 